*casts revive on blog*

Backlog of scribbles that will never be finished...

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Bonus scribble of one of the characters from the short comic strip, I like her design quite a bit actually.

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Also, this is what happens when you ask your chat to collectively design a character, and then try to assign the colours for said character. Possibly the most repulsive thing I've drawn to date, somehow managing to be even worse than the first time I did this with chat. You know, as difficult as this may be to believe, the drawing actually looked halfway decent until we reached the skirt/tights colour, and then it just took a nosedive. Naemi linked this image of the end result along with some chat, and I think it basically sums up the experience...

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Overall though, it's a really fun experience to make a drawing with the chat voting on design/colours. Possibly one of the most enjoyable things for me to do on stream, so I fully intend on doing another (3rd) one in the future. Just please, please let's aim to be better than the 2nd. Surely it cannot get much worse than this.

 

I think I'll try include a song I've been listening to with each post, might make it easier to post more frequently. Anyway, here's a song I only found recently but I've really enjoyed it, and after checking out the album I really like their sound:

Lastly, but most importantly, a stream viewer drew two of my characters awhile ago but I never got around to showing it off since I hadn't posted in so long. But I really love the picture and wanted to share it here. I can't describe how happy it makes me to recieve the kind messages and lovely fanart I've gotten, and saying "thank you" almost feels ungrateful because it doesn't quite capture how much it means to me. I really do appreciate every bit of support, no matter how small. So thanks everyone, and thank you Edeni for this drawing, I never really expected to have fanart of characters I drew, and I really take it as one of the highest forms of flattery. Thanks!

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My computer experienced a complete hard drive failure today. Luckily I had backed up the comic on drive, but I basically lost all my images, music, and old projects. Please remember to back up your files!

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@Kevin Sorry for the belated response. I just manually draw the lines, but perhaps there is a better way.

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Working...

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It's been so long since I first drew this comic that it's taken some adjusting to draw more similarly to how I did back then hahah. I've actually just ended up re-drawing a lot of frames because I wanted to do them better, but now I'm just re-drawing entire pages. It's a bit silly, I suppose, since I'm only really finishing it for my own sake at this point. But it's quite an enjoyable thing to work with no external pressure.

I really want to finish it soon so I can begin working on another story I've been writing over the past couple of weeks. I think this experience of struggling with finishing this short story has made me hyper aware of what pitfalls I tend to fall into when creating something, and hopefully my next attempt will go more smoothly. Every comic is a learning process, I suppose.

 

@xeni Hahah, I miss chatting with everyone too. I want to begin streaming again, maybe this weekend coming up. It probably is a good idea to go outside and do stuff regardless though, good for your health! Also, interesting theory ;)

 

Also, just a song I've been listening to recently:

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Working...

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Also, just on a random side-note, I've only recently noticed that I don't see a lot of messages on twitter. I initially actually thought it was because I don't often check my notifications, so older messages just fall off to the wayside. But upon further inspection it seems like there are messages that straight up don't make it into my notification feed. I suppose it shouldn't really matter, but I did check and notice some people actually asked me a question and I didn't even notice until later. I don't want people to feel like they're being ignored, but I'm not sure if there's a way to handle this. Ultimately, I guess that with how infrequently I use twitter I'll inevitably end up missing a lot of messages regardless...

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Scribble.

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@Naemi Oh hahah I did read about that Lily image stirring up some controversy, there was some tweet showing it appearing in the british parliament I remember.

I try and stay out of most things and just keep to myself, but I do feel as more time passes sitting on the side doesn't quite sit right with me. Eventually you'll reach a point where you need to make a choice, or else your lack of action will end up enabling people to do harm. I'm still not quite sure where the line is, but I figure so long as I continue to try and be a kinder, more understanding person I'll figure it out eventually.

As for your internship, it's probably a good thing it's not at a AAA developer! There are a lot of notoriously exploitative studios out there, and seeing what it's like in a smaller development studio will help you understand how each role relates to others. I wish you the best in your journey, I'm sure you'll do well!

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Back to one... aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa

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@SunCat I have written a few drafts that I considered posting on the blog before, but eventually I begin overthinking it all and not posting them hahah... I think maybe I'd be better off just writing off the top of my head, even if it meant the thoughts were less concise. Maybe just post random thoughts and organize it later down the line, who knows, it might work out better.

I hope you have managed to find that creative outlet, but even if you haven't I think the things stopping you happen to all of us. I suppose that doesn't seem too encouraging but I find it helps for me personally to know that my experiences arent something that's unique to me alone.

I'll check out that manga you recommended, especially given how much I enjoyed the last one! It's always nice to read about a topic you're more knowledgable in, helps give you a better appreciation for it.

 

@Flo I now feel bad for not keeping up the daily posting right after you complimented me on it. RIP.

 

@Naemi Hoi hoi Naemi, I'm a bit mentally drained by other than that I'm doing well, thanks!

In a lot of ways drawing is sorta stress relief to me, so I don't mind drawing often. If i'm drawing a lot that's typically a good sign hahaha. With that said, I agree that it's important to step back and take a break every so often, burn out is real.

I'm surprised to hear you got suspended for saying that. I wasn't aware twitter took a stance on such things. Is being suspended the same as being banned, or is there a duration it lasts for? I'm sort of curious now what twitter's guidelines are for suspension.

Congrats on the internship! That's really exciting news, I'm super happy for you. It's good to hear that you're enjoying it despite how busy it must be, that's a great sign you're in the right field.

Anyway, thanks for the message, it's always nice to read some good news from people I know! Keep up the good work and stay busy! I hope to see your name in the credits of a game someday, hahah!

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No drawing today sorry. Will resume regularly scheduled programming tomorrow, but I have to keep this chain alive. At least make it to double digits PLEASE.

 

@SunCat I feel you on the waiting for updates... it's the reason I often just read manga in cycles rather than chapter by chapter. I'll end up forgetting for a few months then reading it from the beginning again when I pick it back up.

 

Yuka is a great character, but what surprised me was the fact the main character was so enjoyable to follow. Just watching his determination and progress was something I really appreciated. The story and characters feel so authentically written. There's a lot of parts I wanted to write about but I ended up just recommending it to some friends and gushing to them instead.

 

A part that really resonated with me personally was when Yaguchi mentioned how scary it was to admit what you liked. I think art can be an incredibly honest take on your view of the world, and because it's so personal it can also feel like you're exposing your thoughts for other people to tear apart.

f:id:cosmiclatte:20190620235238j:plainIt's something I think about a lot, I want to be truthful but I'm also scared that people will reject the things you hold dear. A big part of what makes (in my mind) a great artist is having some belief you're willing to express, and the confidence to do so. I still feel in many ways I'm too timid, or concerned with what people may think to be truly honest, but maybe someday I'll get there. There's so much I want to write about my thoughts on the manga, but I don't have the time tonight for it. I do really want to thank you for suggesting it to me though, it's been on my mind a lot since reading it.

 

@edeni Yeah I considered it, but I just didn't feel like it suited my idea for the stream. I didn't really want to stifle the viewer experience by putting the canvas on a curved display in 3D space. Just something more low key to keep in the corner and watch is enough for me. With that said, all you really need is a 3d model and you can import it into VDraw, the tool will do the rest.

 

@Kevinfu pls no bully oikawa.

 

Also here's my song for the day. I was listening to a lot of classic piano pieces while reading Blue Period.

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@edeni Yeah I had it in mind for awhile now, but it's nothing as fancy as what you're imagining. I got the idea when I first saw the Bongo Cat webcam for osu players, and wanted to make a basic version like that but with my character instead hahah. I know there's similar tools for it already, such as VDraw but I didn't want it taking up the full screen, just something small and simple on the corner of the stream for my own entertainment. Yeah I've seen Underlords, and I played a bit of Autochess with some friends. It's not really for me I think, but it looks fun enough. I still play Artifact though, hahah. Long haul is long.

 

@SunCat Thank you so much for the recommendation! I ended up reading all 9 chapters in one go, what an incredible read. I love stories that involve people pursuing their passions, and this being about art made it even more enjoyable to me. I also loved Yuka's combination of the gakuran with a seifuku.